Never Let Me Go

5 things have become very real to me this month:

1. Everything happens for a reason
2. "In life, man cannot have everything..."
3. Worrying will never change the outcome
4. I am my own person
5. This is not my life, it is His

Before I elaborate on those 5 things I feel as though I should catch you up on the past month and a half. 

On June 2nd we celebrated my high school graduation with my family.

My family minus my lovely brother, Kit.

I was so excited that Aaron, Charmaine, and the little nugget could join!

I made little graduation cupcakes for the festivities.

Me with one of my creations.

Then, on June 3rd I ventures to Aaron and Charmaine's home for a baby gender revealing BBQ.

We wore the color that we thought the baby's gender would be. 

As you can see, many members of the party were hoping for a little man.

Charmaine's had beautiful decorations.

This was the cake that held their child's "fate".

Whatever the filling color was, was the gender of the nugget.

Here is the sequence of the cake cutting. I love their expressions!

I cannot wait to meet the little man!

On June 8th I graduated from high school!

Here is the mandatory graduation picture:)

I got to sit in the front row because of my speech.

I was freaking out at this exact moment because seconds later I was speaking in front of 4,000 people.

Here I am at the podium sharing my words of wisdom;)

After the ceremony, I was able to take a few quick pictures with my family.

Big brother, Kit.

Unfortunately, I had a hard time keeping my eyes open.

And two of my favorite females, Becca and Charmaine.

The rest of the summer has gone by so quickly. I now have a job as a summer intern at MPC within their student ministries program. I house-sat for a month. A weekend was spent Lake Pearrygin. And here I am now, exhausted. Not physically exhausted but, mentally. This last month has been filled with fear and anxiety. I have been fixating my thoughts on the future. College is only two months away and I am not prepared. So this is where the 5 things fit in.

1. Everything happens for a reason

Next year will be difficult. I am fully prepared for it to suck. But, I have to remember that the Lord has a plan and he will direct me to where he needs me to be. I know that I will learn from every situation and it will all work out. I need to remember to be open minded and the Lord will show me his plan. 

"You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail." Proverbs 19:21. In the end, I don't matter. The Lord will direct me and use me for his glory and purpose.

2. "In life, man cannot have everything..."

I strive to be the best in all I do and it has become very apparent to me this past year that you must make choices and you cannot obtain everything. I have realized that next year I will have to sacrifice some of my normal routine to be able to make it as a college student. It will be difficult, but many other things will come from it.

3. Worrying will never change the outcome

I saw this on Pinterest and it rang true to me. I expend WAY to much energy on worrying. I think I do it because it provides me with a sense of control, but it also is not healthy. I need to shell out energy on positive, healthy thoughts. "The hopes of the Godly result in happiness, but the expectations of the wicked come to nothing." Proverbs 10:28. I cannot expect and follow my own path. I must trust and follow the Lord.

4. I am my own person

This is a hard one for me to grasp. I am slowly beginning to phase into life on my own and it scares me.  I am vey good at becoming what people think that I should be like. I morph into the person that each person senses acceptable to be around and it is exhausting. I need to understand that it is okay to disagree and disappoint people. 

5. This is not my life... it is His

It has become very real to me this past month that my life doesn't actually belong to me anymore. When I asked Jesus into my heart 7 years ago I actually gave up my rights and handed my heart and soul over to him. I am now extremely aware that when we, as humans, make that conscious decision to follow the Lord, we must completely give up... and I mean completely. No longer is it what you want, it is what he wants and where he wants to use you. It is about the Lord and what he has planned. And trust me, what he has planned is far better than what we could ever dream of.

So that has been my life for the past 2 months.

I guess that I should let you know why I titled this post "Never Let Me Go". I have been addicted to Florence and the Machine lately and the song, "Never Let Me Go", really resonates with me and my relationship with the Lord. 

Here is the music video for it. 

That's all for now,

All-i Rose