Hello World,
Today has probably been one of the most frustrating days of thins school year! But, I am not going to let it get in my way of searching for happiness!
During lunch today there is a particular kid that loves to entertain the 600 kid filled lunchroom with a karate routine. He will clear the center of the lunch room and do kicks, punches, and swing his jacket around like a nun chuck:) He also will scream at the top of his lungs! Anyway, as this happens a crowed of teachers and students always forms around him and watch. He usually performs uninterrupted ending with the audience erupting in applause, but today was different... In the middle of his performance a senior casually walked up to him and interrupted him from his kicks and jumps. the senior bowed and let our a low yell. He was beckoning the karate kid to fight:) with that the senior ripped off his jacket and started swinging it. It was perfect! The karate kid was sooo confused and did not understand why some one would fight him. The faces were hilarious from both of them. The attach was perfectly timed and it made my day because it was pure genius. Of course they did not really fight so no one was hurt in the making of this blog.
That was my happy moment of the day:)
Love you all,
Alli
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Day 11
Hello Interwebs!
Bear with me... this weekend has been very hard on me and my emotions have been everywhere. I am struggling with forgiveness, envy and desire. I get so frustrated with people and their actions and I cannot forgive them, I hold on to the feelings of hate and anger. But, then I feel that I hold on to these so that I can sulk in my own self pity and make the moment all about me. And I am so envious about others talents, relationships, and friendships. I think of how things in my life use to be and how my old friendships were and the old feelings and places I use to experience. These thoughts always lead me to think of how amazing things were and how I had everything. Then I think of what I have now and the friends that I have lost and the places that I don't go anymore and how worthless of a person I am. Thinking this way always makes me feel empty, alone, and disliked. I always end up crying and in a bad mood. I realized today that I lost lost my friends and favorite places because of a thing that is better than all of my favorite things. And it makes everything worth losing... I lost those things because of my journey with Christ:) I changed my ways of living so that I can glorify him. So looking back at this weekend and all of the emotions that I have felt they were all worth it because of the fact of going home once this life is over. I need to change the ways that I think and remember that I lost those friendships because if I kept them they would have lead me away from my father. The places that are just memories now are in the past because I am constantly making new memories. And, the feelings of lonlyness and worthlessness are not true because I work for the lord and I am nevery alone:)
So that is my Piece of Happiness today, realising the truth behind my feelings and finding hope from sadness. I am going to leave you with a bible verse,
John 20:29 Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."
Keep searching for the good stuff in life,
Alli
Bear with me... this weekend has been very hard on me and my emotions have been everywhere. I am struggling with forgiveness, envy and desire. I get so frustrated with people and their actions and I cannot forgive them, I hold on to the feelings of hate and anger. But, then I feel that I hold on to these so that I can sulk in my own self pity and make the moment all about me. And I am so envious about others talents, relationships, and friendships. I think of how things in my life use to be and how my old friendships were and the old feelings and places I use to experience. These thoughts always lead me to think of how amazing things were and how I had everything. Then I think of what I have now and the friends that I have lost and the places that I don't go anymore and how worthless of a person I am. Thinking this way always makes me feel empty, alone, and disliked. I always end up crying and in a bad mood. I realized today that I lost lost my friends and favorite places because of a thing that is better than all of my favorite things. And it makes everything worth losing... I lost those things because of my journey with Christ:) I changed my ways of living so that I can glorify him. So looking back at this weekend and all of the emotions that I have felt they were all worth it because of the fact of going home once this life is over. I need to change the ways that I think and remember that I lost those friendships because if I kept them they would have lead me away from my father. The places that are just memories now are in the past because I am constantly making new memories. And, the feelings of lonlyness and worthlessness are not true because I work for the lord and I am nevery alone:)
So that is my Piece of Happiness today, realising the truth behind my feelings and finding hope from sadness. I am going to leave you with a bible verse,
John 20:29 Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."
Keep searching for the good stuff in life,
Alli
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